A few things before I share today’s writing:
I have a few spaces left in my Empelvised Embellied Empowered class for women starting on October 1st. It’s a life-changer! Details are below and here.
As you read, I’m on my way to New Mexico to spend a few days with loved ones in Santa Fe before our Embody Your Genius retreat at Ghost Ranch Retreat Center. Yippeeeeee! I’m thrilled about it. If you’re up for a last-minute trip, we do have room for a few more in our circle. The road trip is one of my favorite parts! You can also fly into Albuquerque and drive from there.
Today, I’m leaning in with a fierce faith in these wise words from Carl Jung:
“The genius hides behind the wound.”
Our wounds offer one way of discovering our Genius. It may be a broken heart wound. For me, delving into the years of healing what had turned into an abusive and harmful relationship with a spiritual teacher has offered me deep gifts, including unequivocal clarity about the kind of teacher and facilitator I do and don’t want to be.
Genius may be hidden behind a physical wound.
I am experiencing my first knee injury, and as a somatic explorer, I admit that I find it fascinating. Instead of staying with the part of me that just wants it to go away so I can get on with my life, when I notice that this injury is calling me into deeper relationship with my body, my movement habits, my practices, and that it is inviting me to get present and get creative, to not keep doing what I’ve always done – it turns out to be a great teacher. Who knows what blessings this knee pain will yield which I wouldn’t have discovered any other way?
Earlier this week, Carl and I had the delightful experience of interviewing Michael Meade for our podcast. (The episode will be edited and posted any day now!) He’s taught us so much about our inner genius and the unique gifts each of us can bring. As it says in the Gospel of Thomas, “If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.”
I heartfully believe that both you and the wider world need you to bring forth your unique gifts. This particular time in history is quite intensely begging for it.
May it be so!
Below is something I wrote last year in September of 2017. I reread this piece this week and it touched my heart all over again. I’m inspired to share it here today.
Sept. 8, 2017
The western US on fire, more massive hurricanes and flooding, the first morning in a week we have a sky that’s blue and not white with smoke, a headache from breathing smoky air for days, distress at my son’s cough, heartache with more destructive policy coming from our president. It’s been a LOT, friends. How are you?
Gratefully, I’m not pathologizing my distress nor trying to fix it. I’m feeling it fully. I’m in the midst of a 30-day cleanse so I’m not even taking the edge off with a glass of wine. I cried in the kitchen yesterday with a dear friend, sharing my concern for the world, for my son’s generation, for my deep sorrow at the burning and flooding. I cried for my wish that more people would stop distracting themselves with entertainment or shopping and let their hearts break at seeing these planetary changes. I don’t know what to do, but I do know the next right thing won’t emerge if we don’t let ourselves look at it straight on and FEEL it and allow ourselves to be touched deeply by our circumstances.
I’m also celebrating beauty where I find it. Grateful to live with a little one whose humor and imagination are infinite. Grateful for wildflowers, kind words, humor, my 18-year-old cat’s purr and snuggles, for soup made by my mom, for loved ones.
After a beautiful ritual with almost 20 people in the mountains to Tend the River of Grief last weekend, after we emptied the large ritual bowl we had used for our grief ritual into the river, I said, “It’s empty, so we can fill it again!” Little did I know how soon my own well of grief would be full and need tending again. This week has broken my heart, had me quaking and inspired some digging deep. After a few days of mourning like it was my job, I’m finding some footing today. I want to share with you an excerpt from a powerful book which I highly recommend. It’s a tremendously moving and well-written book called Great Tide Rising: Towards Clarity and Moral Courage in a Time of Planetary Change by Kathleen Dean Moore. It’s beautiful and important in so many ways. This week, I’m leaning into this story from the book and I wanted to share it with you. The whole book is well worth a read, (please read it) and today, this essay in particular. Please do yourself a favor and savor it.
I considered summarizing the story, but her words are just so good. From Kathleen Dean Moore:
“Over the years, college students have often come to my office distraught, unable to think of what they might be able to do to stop the terrible losses caused by an industrial growth economy run amok. So much dying, so much destruction. I tell them about Mount Saint Helens, the volcano that blasted a hole in the Earth in 1980, only a decade before they were born.
Those scientists were so wrong back in 1980, I tell my students. When they first climbed from the helicopters, holding handkerchiefs over their faces to filter ash from the Mount Saint Helens eruption, they did not think they would live long enough to see life restored to the blast zone. Every tree was stripped gray, every ridgeline buried in cinders, every stream clogged with toppled trees and ash. If anything would grow here again, they thought, its spore and seed would have to drift in from the edges of the devastation, long dry miles across a plain of cinders and ash. The scientists could imagine that– spiders on silk parachutes drifting over rubble and plain, a single samara spinning into the shade of a pumice stone. It was harder to imagine the time required for flourishing to return to the mountains – all the dusty centuries.
But here they are today: On the mountain, only thirty-five years later, these same scientists are on their knees, running their hands over beds of moss below lupine in lavish purple bloom. Tracks of mice and fox wander along a stream, and here, beside a ten-foot silver fir, a coyote’s twisted scat grows mushrooms. What the scientists know now, but didn’t understand then, is that when the mountain blasted ash and rock across the landscape, the devastation passed over some small places hidden in the lee of rocks and trees. Here, a bed of moss and deer fern under a rotting log. There under a boulder, a patch of pearly everlasting and the tunnel to a vole’s musty nest. Between stones in a buried stream, a slick of algae and clustered dragonfly larvae. Refugia, they call them: places of safety where life endures. From the refugia, mice and toads emerged blinking onto the blasted plain. Grasses spread, strawberries sent out runners. From a thousand, ten thousand, maybe countless small places of enduring life, forests and meadows returned to the mountain.
I have seen this happen. I have wandered the edge of Mount Saint Helens vernal pools with ecologists brought to unscientific tears by the song of meadowlarks in this place.
My students have been taught, as they deserve to be, that the fossil-fueled industrial growth culture has brought the world to the edge of catastrophe. They don’t have to “believe in” climate change to accept this claim. They understand the decimation of plant and animal species, the poisons, the growing deserts and spreading famine, the rising oceans and melting ice. If it’s true that we can’t destroy our habitats without destroying our lives, as Rachel Carson said, and if it’s true that we are in the process of laying waste to the planet, then our ways of living will come to an end – some way or another, sooner or later, gradually or catastrophically – and some new way of life will begin. What are we supposed to do? What is there to hope for at the end of this time? Why bother trying to patch up the world while so many others seem intent on wrecking it?
These are terrifying questions for an old professor; thank god for the volcano’s lesson. I tell them about the rotted stump that sheltered spider eggs, about a cupped cliff that saved a fern, about all the other refugia that brought life back so quickly to the mountain. If destructive forces are building under our lives, then our work in this time and place, I tell them, is to create refugia of the imagination. Refugia, places where ideas are sheltered and encouraged to grow.
Even now, we can create small pockets of flourishing, and we can make ourselves into overhanging rock ledges to protect life so that the full measure of possibility can spread and reseed the world. Doesn’t matter what it is, I tell my students; if it’s generous to life, imagine it into existence. Create a bicycle cooperative, a seed-sharing community, a wildlife sanctuary on the hill below the church. Raise butterflies with children Sing duets to the dying. Tear out the irrigation system and plant native grass. Imagine water pumps. Imagine a community garden in the Kmart parking lot. Study ancient corn. Teach someone to sew. Learn to cook with the full power of the sun at noon.
We don’t have to start from scratch. We can restore pockets of flourishing lifeways that have been damaged over time. Breach a dam. Plant a riverbank. Vote for schools. Introduce the neighbors to one another’s children. Celebrate the solstice. Slow a river course with a fallen log. Tell stories of how indigenous people live on the land. Clear the grocery carts out of the stream.
Maybe most effective of all, we can protect refugia that already exist. They are all around us. Protect the marshy ditch behind the mall. Work to ban poisons from the edges of the road. Save the hedges in your neighborhood. Boycott what you don’t believe in. Refuse to participate in what is wrong. There is hope in this: An attention that notices and celebrates thriving where it occurs; a conscience that refuses to destroy it.
From these sheltered pockets of moral imagining, and from the protected pockets of flourishing, new ways of living will spread across the land, across the salt plains and beetle-killed forests. Here is how life will start anew. Not from the edges over centuries of invasion; rather from small pockets of good work, shaped by an understanding that all life is interdependent, and driven by the one gift humans have that belongs to no other: practical imagination – the ability to imagine that things can be different from what they are now.”
What Eugene Gendlin wisely said in regards to our inner lives is equally true of our outer circumstances.
“What is true is already so.
Owning up to it doesn’t make it worse.
Not being open about it doesn’t make it go away.
And because it’s true, it is what is there to be interacted with.
People can stand what is true, for they are already enduring it.”
Climate change? We are already enduring it. Let’s be open about it, interact with it, find a life-giving relationship with it. Let’s create and nurture refugia of many kinds.
Here’s a little inspiration from Walt Whitman.
This is what you should do:
Love the earth and sun and animals,
despise riches, give alms to everyone that asks,
stand up for the stupid and crazy,
devote your income and labor to others, hate tyrants,
argue not concerning God,
have patience and indulgence toward the people…
reexamine all you have been told in school or church or in any book,
dismiss what insults your very soul,
and your flesh shall become a great poem.
~ Walt Whitman ~
May it be so.